If I shout it's because I love you... Although I wish I didn't have to

Poem by Marc Aupiais

If I shout it's because I love you,
If I scream or you accuse!

It's because I care where they abuse,
I love where they use!

If I scream its because I'm not going anywhere!
I'm critical because our future is one!

And I'd never care to leave!
Not even for just once!

Though I wish you'd say more!
And let me know you better!

If I scream it's because I love you,
And I feel helpless as
though you hear me not!

I wonder if I know you at all

Poem by Marc Aupiais

I see you, I feel you,
In my heart, and your hope!
I hear you, see you,
I wonder and love!

Yet as you speak,
As you seek!

I wonder if, and I wonder how,
I wonder if I know you!
At all!

I love you but I am not me around you!

Poem by Marc Aupiais

I love you,
But I withdraw from you,
I am not me,
I do not tell you,

I love you,
But I cannot trust you,
Not if you Act the way you do!

I love but I don't have to be there with you,
Nor tell you my deep truths,
Or avoid dangers with you!

I watch you head for doom,
In this world and the next,
I do not defend for you,
For you have chose death,
Not my path my love!

And I leave you to God!
Knowing he will condemn against you!
Because you refuse my help,
For love of you!

So I withdraw,
And threaten for you,
Feeling inch by inch,
My losing for you!

Least you turn and seek for me,
You'll find me,
In truth,
Hidden deep!

But though I feel your presence,
Behind me as I sleep!

I know the distance to you,
And that our paths may cross,
Or never cross against each other,

As it is!
You head away!

And I cannot follow away without you!

The red sun rises in the night

Poem by Marc Aupiais

Die dag is donker as een ander dag.
Die dag is donker as die nag,
En daar is nie hoop nie.
In die dag of die nag!?

The day is different,
Darker than the night,
Though the sun is high,
Clouds break in deathly upon the skies,
Purple,
Or blue,
Not warm!

So cold,
The day is colder than arctic breeze,
The sun has forgotten our names!

Neglected the seasons,
Cold in summer,
In all the heat,
Colder than I've been,
And it rains,
Only on one's cheeks,
Cheeky rain it is!

Then grey!

And all the colours,
Matter not,

For you are the coldness,
That haunts my life,
The ghostly evaporation,
That was designed-
Made,
To warm not freeze!

But what warmth,
Of blackest hearts?

Terrible is the blasphemy which destroys my soul

Poem by Marc Aupiais

The beauty of our sinful thoughts,
The wonderment of the blasphemy,
Against emperor, God,
Against my nation and my birth!

The wonderment of the Blasphemy-
Terrible is the blasphemy which destroys my soul!

For it destroys your soul,
This blasphemy,
So beautiful,
So untrue!

And I hear the sun rise

Poem by Marc Aupiais

And I hear the sun rise,
I see the songs of birds,
And I cry,
I know the truth!

And the truth love,
You hurt me and the universe's dear fabric and threads,

Perhaps oblivious,
You stab me,
And break me.

A horse with hardly a spirit!
You broke me,
Will you leave me now?
Baby girl!?

With every breath

Poem by Marc Aupiais

With every breath,
I die a little more,
I break a little more,
And should my heart shake and shiver,
I know I am not at risk of suicide,
No- I'd die of you- causing me heart... Shake!

For your every thought,
Every breath,
Kills me gradually inside!
For I love you and miss you,
But my heart is breaking within my soul!

And your words destroy my inner foundation,
Pillars of my life,
I am dying of you,
I'm never and no more!

I love you love!
Don't make me meek!

In the morning it's Saturday

Poem by Marc Aupiais

In the morning it's Saturday,
I'm almost a day ahead.

I see further than that-
Into future and past!

I know of our love-
In lasts its was planned!

It gets stronger my love,
Truth never failed to plan!

But where we fought for our love,
We forgot how to breathe,
Forgot how to love,
Forgot how to see!

Have faith in our love!
Its there within and without!

Just be with me,
Within God's humble hands,
I trust in you and his plan,
My life in your hands!

My love- you are all I am,
My purpose, my country,
My queen, antarctic,
Or cold,
Or desert hot!

I never gave up,
And never but forge ahead!

Searching for your heart!
I know your face,
I know your voice,
I know your name,
And God's dear slain!

Baby girl,
I live with but one purpose,
To love, and be with,
To have and to hold,
Dear you!

Hold tight my being,
Tight, clutch, hold,
Never release me,
Ensnare me,
With love, trust, faith,
And sureness more true than hope!

Stand by me,
Be the icy wind cold, think and thin!

Loving you,
Is why I was born,

My wishes love

Poem by Marc Aupiais

Salvation first- to you and me,
God and truth,
Not sin or dreams!

Never a death, nor culture of death!
Things permanent not fleeting,
Don't separate us forever!

In the world love,
Not of the world!

In the culture of death,
The nations of doom and death!

But not of them,
Different- not them!

Good not evil!
Truth not sin!

Stop the drive for sin!

Romeo and Julliette- Adam and Eve- suicide their fate!

Poem by Marc Aupiais

Purposely mispelt,
Romeo and Juliette,
Adam and Eve!

What heights for love,
Suicide, unnecessary death!

The fruit of the garden,
Chemistry of death!

Baby girl promise me now!
Tend our garden,
Never serve death!

The damnation of my enemies- a blessing to the world

Poem by Marc Aupiais

My love I pray,
That the enemies of church,
And my heavenly estate,
God bless God,
God condemn them to hell,
To punishment worse than 10 000 deaths.

I pray my love for their damnation then,
For the world wants to reward them,
To praise them as heroes,
Therefore I turn from prayers for repentance,
To curses- to prayers of damnation,
As the ius gentium is at risk!

And I pray an eternal death on them,
The enemies of the lux,
Lucem gentium rise again,

Destroy die nasie van droome,
Destroy die nasie van dood.

And condemn them visibly to hell,
Who accuse mother church,
And her true just children!

I pray they change their ways,
But if they don't,

Justice reign down from the heavens,

May justice be done against the sinner,
Eternal dread,
Aghast dear sinner,
Least the heavens fall-
Justice be done,
Should the skies collapse,
And all alive die and fall in drought!

Why you will leave me

Poem by Marc Aupiais

You know how I strenuously object,
Or am selfish,
And act not set!

I am weak and love you,
Yet with every betrayal,
The more around your little finger I am wrapped!

The more danger there is love,
That you'd leave,
I'd have nothing left,
Only life and suffering,
Perhaps wishing my death,
If you left!