tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48266063310156960732024-03-08T11:52:37.582+02:00The Tempest and the HurricaneAnd yet, the night breeze, I sensed, it became a hurricane in the morning, my dream, in it as though truth itself, is to know that night breeze, as though in romance- to romance the mystery of the hidden truth. For I love the night breeze, which so few yet can sense.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.comBlogger428125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-55373260560192579152023-06-27T11:03:00.004+02:002023-06-27T11:04:20.210+02:00As other stories came and went<p>I've been here. There.</p><p>Walked. Rode out.</p><p>Horse and cart; little car.</p><p>A dance here; cinema.</p><p><br /></p><p>But here and there are gone.</p><p>And those I knew fell away.</p><p>Maybe dead, maybe gone.</p><p>Stories, now. Mind bound.</p><p><br /></p><p>A photograph or ten in a booth.</p><p>A night and day. Memories, too.</p><p>That shark tooth. That slippery slide.</p><p>Injury on a bike. Another — that place.</p><p>Crocodile. Water. Boat. </p><p>Too strong rapids.</p><p>Mud. Soot.</p><p><br /></p><p>Gone. Past. And the friendship of the time.</p><p>Forgotten. Brought to mind.</p><p>Captured. Photographs. And broken lies.</p><p>Broken lines. Fractured times.</p><p><br /></p><p>And through it all, I walked, half asleep.</p><p>As other stories came and went,</p><p>Stopping by for a moment in my life.</p><p>Falling, without resolving, out of my time and life.</p><p>Just as I, too, will ... one day ... some time.</p><p><br /></p><p>- Marc Evan Aupiais</p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-25655207713059575362022-08-23T14:47:00.005+02:002022-08-23T14:47:55.609+02:00Upon that empty mountainside.<p> Climb. Climb. Climb.</p><p>Upon a mountainside.</p><p>Heavy, the burden, upon my back.</p><p>Heavy, heavier, heavier.</p><p>Heaviest — one day, will take me down.</p><p><br /></p><p>Up an ever steeper — steeper — steeper slope.</p><p>Climb, I say, Climb, I do,</p><p>As taunts come from the valleys,</p><p>And even from the mountaintops.</p><p>Climb, climb, climb.</p><p><br /></p><p>Ever harder. Ever hard. Ever the slope goes up.</p><p>Ever heavier the pack on my back.</p><p>Ever louder, the baying about.</p><p>Climb. Climb. Climb.</p><p>I continue up. Tears within my heart and soul. </p><p>Climb. Climb. Climb.</p><p><br /></p><p>Upon the lonely mountainside.</p><p>Heavy. Heavier. Heaviest.</p><p>And one day I will not be able to go on.</p><p>Climb. Climb. Climb.</p><p>Upon the mountainside. </p><p>Climb, I say, Climb I do.</p><p>Today, I must go on. Today, I must go on.</p><p>Today, I must go on. For today, I still can.</p><p>Even though I know soon enough in time,</p><p>The clock will tick, and my heart will beat,</p><p>And will it be that one last time,</p><p>That I climb, climb, climb upon that emptying mountainside. Upon that empty mountainside.</p><p><br /></p><p>Prose by Marc Evan Aupiais</p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-63217196352178479972022-08-01T08:27:00.002+02:002022-08-01T08:27:18.351+02:00Vows entwined<p> A vow. A lifetime away.</p><p>A binding oath, was said.</p><p>A lifetime — away, was vowed </p><p>An oath did bind a life.</p><p><br /></p><p>And suffering and sacrifice.</p><p>Libations of blood, and sweat.</p><p>Serving. Giving. All that was had.</p><p>And the mere mortal body to wild animals on need.</p><p><br /></p><p>To love, whether of a feeling or not.</p><p>To give, with nothing left,</p><p>To give of bone and marrow,</p><p>When only eternity was left.</p><p><br /></p><p>To respect, even when not loved,</p><p>To love, though met with grave disrespect.</p><p>And to give, and give, and give, and give.</p><p>Even to no respect. No love. No smile.</p><p><br /></p><p>An oath, binding on the marrow of the bone.</p><p>On the flesh of the heart.</p><p>On the elasticity of the stomach.</p><p>A vow of sickness and health. No real escape, but death. Binding, always, impossible to be unsaid.</p><p><br /></p><p>A vow. A lifetime away.</p><p>A binding oath, was said.</p><p>A lifetime — away, was vowed </p><p>An oath did bind a life.</p><p><br /></p><p>An oath will bind a life.</p><p>It ought to bind a life.</p><p>For words are sacred. Your word, more so.</p><p>And a yes must always mean yes.</p><p><br /></p><p>Even unto death.</p><p>Vows that cannot be unset.</p><p>A yes must always mean but yes.</p><p>And yes. And yes. And yes. And yes.</p><p><br /></p><p>A sacred oath must never be unsaid.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Vows entwined — prose by Marc Evan Aupiais</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-63800769445399227682022-07-31T21:21:00.001+02:002022-07-31T21:21:13.936+02:00Void behind<p> I speak. I am not heard.</p><p>My best shout is a whisper, within my head.</p><p>I cry out. I cry in. The void stands motionless.</p><p>It stares into me. Darkness fills my sight.</p><p><br /></p><p>I run. I cannot move.</p><p>I flee, but nowhere beckons.</p><p>Sludge surrounds me. Quicksand slows my heart.</p><p>I cannot speak. I cannot breathe. Not in, nor out.</p><p><br /></p><p>Riches, knowledge, sacrifice, work.</p><p>Youth. Health. Time. Offered away in a blink.</p><p>But I speak. I am not heard.</p><p>Sludge surrounds me. Quicksand slows my heart.</p><p><br /></p><p>Failure beckons from behind.</p><p>I run. I speak. I sacrifice all I am.</p><p>I speak. I am not heard. Not yet. Never yet.</p><p>I speak. I run. I sacrifice all I am.</p><p><br /></p><p>Behind me, darkness beckons.</p><p>I still speak. I still run. I still sacrifice all I am.</p><p>Behind me, darkness beckons.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Void behind - Prose by Marc Evan Aupiais</p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-6060249752994152272022-07-21T11:26:00.000+02:002022-07-21T11:26:03.821+02:00Unsaid<p>Few words. Fewer breaths. Cloudy skies, chilly bread.</p><p>A sun that does not warm the inside of my head.</p><p>Stars, blotted out by street lights, a moon hidden in daytime.</p><p>A buzz in my chest. A heart of lead. For cold water veins.</p><p>Fuelling the unseen shadow of my blood. Pump. Pump. I hear it in my skull.</p><p>Pump. Pump. Yet, I hardly move.</p><p>My chest does not desire to draw in breath. </p><p>Few words. Fewer breaths.</p><p>A sun that does not warm the inside of my head.</p><p>Unsaid.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Prose by Marc Evan Aupiais</p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-6525449731233175962021-04-27T07:55:00.003+02:002021-04-27T07:55:56.029+02:00Of the flowering flower, the flower of good success.<p> They watered its white petals with reddest blood,</p><p>And partied, drank, danced, and ate, with modern legend, well past midnight,</p><p>The flower of good success,</p><p>Its petals absorbed the blood, not their own,</p><p>And bloomed with such beauty,</p><p>Cannot be forgotten or unseen.</p><p><br /></p><p>With words, which shimmering pictures made,</p><p>Smiles, champagne, limousines,</p><p>And flowers in flowing manes,</p><p>And they threw blood upon the flower,</p><p>An oblation to its infusion of beauty.</p><p>And unreality, they made, any fantasy enforced, And blood gathered from the believers of their very pretty lies,</p><p>The goodly gospel of good good good success.</p><p><br /></p><p>And it delighted the eyes, the stomach, and the smiles.</p><p>And to its haunting melodies, we danced until sunrise,</p><p>But I could not deny the colour of grass or sky,</p><p>Or pretend clear skies were grey, and grey skies blue,</p><p>Or that the sun was but the moon.</p><p><br /></p><p>And it flowered and bloomed,</p><p>And folk songs followed the flower,</p><p>And sought its wisdom and counsel,</p><p>And showered it in beautiful words and hopes,</p><p>And showered it in human blood.</p><p><br /></p><p>Panglosses cheered and smiled, and danced,</p><p>And smoke like a machine consumed the scene,</p><p>And flames, like Roman candles did celebrate,</p><p>And around the flower, they danced,</p><p>And unlike the ancient living candles of Rome,</p><p>They did not go to a better place,</p><p>But their blood sparkled upon the petals,</p><p>And there they worshiped and rejoiced in the beauty,</p><p>Of the flowering flower, the flower of good success.</p><p><br /></p><p>And as their many sacrifices, ordinary fools but armed with glitter and mascara, mirrors, and pyres of smoke, sparklers in their hands,</p><p>Flowers in their flowing long curls,</p><p>They danced into the flames, and smoke, and sacrificial beautifully spinning blades they themselves erected,</p><p>And their blood, too, hit the beautiful white flower,</p><p>Ingratitude their position of every bit of pride,</p><p>The flower of good success, full to excess,</p><p>But to me, it seems they never had lasting hope or real success.</p><p>Their blood spattered upon its petals,</p><p>And as the sun rose, it faded, and died, as all flowers eventually do,</p><p>And I watched from my spot a distance away,</p><p>As blood turned to dust and fed the soil.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Poem by Marc Evan Aupiais</p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-36072405143473807762020-12-16T15:36:00.002+02:002020-12-16T15:37:00.828+02:00Stark light of day<p>A cycle, of historic repeats, </p><p>But it wasn't news for you,</p><p>Thread upon silver thread,</p><p>Sparkling under artificial sun,</p><p><br /></p><p>You never knew it was commonplace, they never told you.</p><p>Disaster, tragedy, the ones they show you,</p><p>Through distorted lenses,</p><p>They show you those for the power to impose.</p><p>To influence, to win souls.</p><p>A silvery, leathery whip, bejewelled and glittering forth,</p><p>It sounds forth in a figure of eight.</p><p><br /></p><p>They won't show you the ghosts and ghouls that break through their frozen ice spider webs.</p><p>What voice the objector gets is reflected through carnival mirrors,</p><p>It loses meaning and nuance, </p><p>Until it fits, squarely in the targeted egg shaped hole.</p><p>Silenced by a swing and snap.</p><p>And news of shame and horror, is turned on and off like operating liquid taps,</p><p>The rest quietly unnoticed, the all seeing gaze relaying nothing,</p><p>Those raising above carefully cut down,</p><p>Like slaves in a Spartan field.</p><p>Or turning nothing into unread stats,</p><p>And slandering and name calling whatever hosts scepticism inhabits.</p><p>All as you sit, willing,</p><p>And dream the dreams of decades ago,</p><p>Of a world not strangled by ladders and fortifications,</p><p>Into most definite inhuman decay.</p><p><br /></p><p>And in darkness, the silvery whip appears as a sun,</p><p>For we are not allowed to see our world,</p><p>In the stark light of day.</p><p><br /></p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-43559588804892147872020-12-15T10:25:00.003+02:002020-12-15T10:26:43.333+02:00A Deathly Rising Sun<p> Victory celebrated oceans away.</p><p>A deathly rising, with the sun.</p><p>Champagne uncorked, like shots fired.</p><p>Sparkling wine poured into tall glasses,</p><p>Flowing like spilt blood.</p><p><br /></p><p>A celebration is in order.</p><p>A foe has been disposed of, it seems.</p><p>And bloodlike, champagne spills unto red fabric, silk,</p><p>It stains it with the pattern of a maze.</p><p>Like a computer chip, or concentration camp.</p><p>With the rising of the sun, there is celebration, oceans away, with flowing champaign.</p><p>A dawn rising, cements itself, as cross and green crescent is treaded under foot,</p><p>And the sky reddens, like a flag or like blood.</p><p>And the champagne spreads across a map,</p><p>On every key point, it rests.</p><p>Conquest will not be needed,</p><p>But libations, of wine and blood, flow nonetheless,</p><p>In celebration of a long dead penman god,</p><p>Whose vision guides the blood rising on land and sea, and a spider silk network, throughout East and West, loyal yet, as seeds.</p><p>A new Venice and a new Rome. And a new road, in silk, laid fresh.</p><p>And celebration is had, a harvest is wrought,</p><p>And blood pours over the cold steel produce.</p><p>And terror treads quietly, night and day, in full sight of all who see. </p><p>A celebration is had, and sacrifices are made,</p><p>Perhaps of you, as of them, perhaps just of your soul, and mine.</p>Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-45242829111423883042018-11-03T18:37:00.002+02:002018-11-03T18:37:51.208+02:00To be dangerous, be good.Be not harmless, not that lie you tell others. In your heart is darkness, anchored within the depths of hell, you are human, all are. In your soul, shining bright, like terrible death, is a blade, burnt in hellfire. Wield it, but keep it always well sheathed. Shining yellow and red, its flamed obliterative heat.<br />
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Be dangerous, a hazard capable of inflicting great and terrible harm, a stumbling block, and ambush for the enemies of you and of mankind, within your soul and outside of it. Capability, have within, for anything, and to any necessary puzzle, be prepared to answer.<br />
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Be wild, untamed, incorporate within you, your shadow, the darkness you pretend isn't there, and bring the demons within your mind and soul under your own well chosen control.<br />
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Be not harmless, be capable of great harm, but, be a warrior, firm, and disciplined, aware of the monster that stares calculatingly back from your abyss, train him by the destructive light of truth, subject yourself to what is right, enslave yourself to the prompts of good. For no human being is harmless, the everyday man is deceptive, but like good soldiers, they can firmly and consistently endeavour and choose to only do good.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-33852792331216163322018-11-01T09:20:00.000+02:002018-11-01T09:20:30.488+02:00The first ever cause, logic breaks down, could not be an effect?Cause and Effect, an illogical idea, at the beginning of the universe<br />
Poem by Marc Evan Aupiais<br />
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Tick Tock. The clock did stop.<br />
Cause. Effect. Until the start.<br />
A big bang, or a tiny grain of sand.<br />
It matters not.<br />
<br />
Go far enough back, there must always be a cause.<br />
Something, a start, to continue to, dominoes, cause and effect.<br />
But take infinity, call it X.<br />
What happened before X.<br />
What was the first cause of effect.<br />
For something must have caused it too,<br />
But nothing can have, there must be a first, <br />
And this is it.<br />
<br />
What is logic? Cause and effect.<br />
To be logical, the foundation must be firm, it must be sound,<br />
And that foundation must cause an effect, the specific effect, it must follow.<br />
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And yet, the entire universe is a non sequitur. It does not follow.<br />
And neither science: cause and effect, can explain an effect without a cause,<br />
And nor can magic: for magic is mechanical in its thinking, the precursor to science, it believed that one act, whether ritual or effective, certainly would cause another.<br />
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And whether a big bang, steady state, multiverse, or ever repeating loop, something must have brought it into being. A first knock upon the movement, the cause and effect we call time, for without energy, entropy would break the clock, even one in a circular loop. Without some outside cause for its effect, some source, all movement would stop.<br />
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What else is left? For time is cause and effect?<br />
But then something not bound by time, must have had an effect. For, what caused X, what caused the first slight or great movement of time? The clock stops, for by its logic we know not its cause, the cause of logic, or time, of before and after, of cause and effect.<br />
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Either that, or logic, the patterns we observe as absolute, is neither universal, nor much but a precursor, like magic.<br />
For the very first cause, logically, could not be an effect.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-40911599809832980182018-01-28T16:08:00.000+02:002018-01-28T16:08:21.557+02:00Careless tumbles the barrel of timeCareless tumbles the barrel of time,<br />
Foolish have been my decisions.<br />
Broken, rusts the armour of mine,<br />
Painful, the thrust of misericord,<br />
Piercing through my protective barriers. <br />
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Sometimes, it is over, good has met its end.<br />
You try to fight on, ghostly, despite a mortal wound.<br />
<br />
And as I stand upon the field,<br />
Quite accounted for.<br />
<br />
It is time I admit it is over. To safety, I hope to flee.<br />
My life, my hope, my faith in tact,<br />
But my heart shattered like brittle stone.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-13908313833008511252018-01-19T18:13:00.000+02:002018-01-19T18:13:27.617+02:00Such a promise has lifeSuch a promise has life; swirling, twirling, spinning.<br />
Such a treat it promises; diminishing returns.<br />
Such power; cannot but acquiesce.<br />
And waves rush over you, and pull you deeper in.<br />
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And scaled tales, mermaids, or snakes,<br />
Drag you further, deeper, farther,<br />
<br />
And in you go, you lose your breath,<br />
And your will is no longer your own.<br />
And the freedom of God's creatures,<br />
Is not your freedom anymore,<br />
<br />
But, such a promise has life; swirling, twirling, spinning.<br />
Such a treat it promises; diminishing returns.<br />
<br />
And I stand on the roughened sand beach, near<br />
Broken beer bottles, and signs of decay.<br />
<br />
And in the winds, I slowly start to sway.<br />
And life beckons, amidst the waves,<br />
And through tears, I head towards them.<br />
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But, I stop. Ahead, scales, shining things in waves,<br />
Beauty, tinged with eternal romance.<br />
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But I stay, where I am, and sway.<br />
I do not enter the waves.<br />
Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-60848504837290023862017-11-05T16:02:00.001+02:002017-11-05T16:10:01.021+02:00Coffee has a bitter taste ... Coffee has a bitter taste;<br />
But not the coffee that you make.<br />
Teas can soothe me, I have my quite a lot, but serenity has a name, yours, in fact, and I love you quite, quite, quite a lot.<br />
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I don't like flu vaccines, needless aren't for me, <br />
But there is no vaccine against how deeply your humour penetrates my soul and heart, and for good measure, bounces about.<br />
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And kindness is a word, quite rare.<br />
Often a cue to naivety. <br />
But your kindness itself is rare, and overwhelms me,<br />
A force of great strength, not a thing weakness, nor simple nor of naivety.<br />
<br />
And, though I might miss the odd social cue,<br />
You write and speak, well mannered, and full of courtesy,<br />
You'd put much of nobility and many a belle to shame,<br />
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All, while wiser than Odysseus, with a keener observation than Machiavelli, and a goodness even angels would cherish, as your penchant is to bravely follow the paths where they would fear to tread.<br />
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I am ever in awe of you, my aeviternal Lovely. I am ever in love with you, my eternal Love.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-25764991642206629182017-09-03T11:42:00.000+02:002017-09-03T11:42:40.701+02:00Souls entwine, fates unite, but seldom does a soul so still.A poem inspired by the beautiful Terry-Louise, my love.<br />
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Souls entwine, fates unite,<br />
But seldom does a soul so still.<br />
Never does its essence hold,<br />
Yet ever it does,<br />
As days unfold,<br />
And my future entwined,<br />
It holds on, in you.<br />
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Your voice makes all good things true,<br />
Your absence holds me like a grave,<br />
And a grave thing, any sadness is,<br />
For your single tear floods all my world.<br />
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In your soul, my soul delights,<br />
Your joy fills my hope and love,<br />
And love, I feel, every part of my form,<br />
And love I feel, for every part of your form,<br />
Every part of your mind,<br />
Every curve of your soul.<br />
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And my deep waters, their depths, you still.<br />
And my turbulent ripples, tides and troubles,<br />
And my deep, deep ripples, even they are still,<br />
They have peace, in your peace, in your hope, and love. <br />
Love, in your love, I remain. I hold time itself, still.<br />
And in you I am content. My soul, is stilled.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-45662913714737150882017-06-03T22:13:00.000+02:002017-06-03T22:18:38.130+02:00Happiness, or something alike ...I see your smile<br />
You're happy now.<br />
I was happy once.<br />
Your hand, resting upon mine,<br />
Your heat, touch, made me smile.<br />
<br />
I saw perfection in you, though imperfect,<br />
Like a solider, I'd have died for my Trojan Helen,<br />
But she never returned the favour, to the many who did.<br />
Obscurity took them,<br />
Obscurity took me, for you do not utter my name.<br />
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I miss your arm in mine,<br />
I regret the lack,<br />
That your presence is not.<br />
I see you smile,<br />
You've fallen in love again,<br />
You fall so easily, for every sort of brutish man,<br />
You've forgotten my presence,<br />
My soft, subtle self,<br />
Not the brute, but the poet.<br />
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You were the raison d'être for my hope,<br />
My craving, my mote,<br />
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And for many a year, my substitute for forever,<br />
Now but a banshee heralding my soul's hopeless depths,<br />
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And where I once asked for sugar,<br />
I now ask for salt.<br />
For sweetness would burn my soul.<br />
Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-9288748702609572552017-05-10T10:57:00.002+02:002017-05-10T10:57:37.841+02:00Void ...It happened again,<br />
An impulse,<br />
A moment,<br />
A weakness,<br />
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I didn't contain my inner angels,<br />
As they sang a tune of hope,<br />
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And out it poured,<br />
Emotion, truth even.<br />
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And like oil, it caught fire,<br />
Blackness, flames, smoke.<br />
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And words cannot be withheld,<br />
And I said it, something true. Something felt.<br />
A most beautiful emotion, a thought.<br />
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And a hydra formed of flames,<br />
And a naked whiteness burnt my vision.<br />
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And I sat, bare feet upon solid ground,<br />
Swaying like smoke.<br />
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Void, empty, null.<br />
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And nothing was left yet for hope.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-48958103728891043622017-05-05T09:05:00.000+02:002017-05-05T09:08:54.806+02:00I want ...Grey is the fog of love and of war,<br />
She's often been there, so why do I ... want ... more?<br />
I want ... to grasp her ... in the darkest dark of the witching hour,<br />
To hold her tight, in the brightest light of day.<br />
And, perhaps, I want to be led quite astray.<br />
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And as Cinderella's clock strikes,<br />
And takes her magic away,<br />
My imperfect love, who I now prefer,<br />
I want to feel her warmth permeate my life.<br />
<br />
And in the darkness of the early morning,<br />
As somehow I am yet to sleep,<br />
My blanket tight, my pet cat upon my duvet, my pillows soft and soothing, <br />
Staring into the tundra of night,<br />
<br />
I imagine her, in the echoes of mine,<br />
I dream of her as a mother to my future offspring, as my wife,<br />
And I far from abhor the dreamy sight,<br />
<br />
And yet, she's furniture, and there's history,<br />
And what if these new feelings suddenly take flight,<br />
And I could not forsake her in pursuit of night,<br />
<br />
And what ... if, heaven forbid, it is somehow then but on one side,<br />
We often fight, and we also do delight,<br />
<br />
Yet, I want ... to grasp her, in day and night.<br />
<br />
And 'I love you', means nothing,<br />
Just words of might ... she often says them, day and night,<br />
To me. Surely, just wind, not the force of oceans, and sight?<br />
<br />
Yet I want ... <br />
<br />
And I keep silent, for she speaks my name, and I delight.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-8798988591556856052017-03-16T21:46:00.002+02:002017-03-16T21:46:23.037+02:00The world, it is not for meThe world, it is not for me,<br />
There is beautiful poetry about chasing me into the sea,<br />
And every blame that can be laid, surely, they fit right on me,<br />
I am unwelcome in my country,<br />
As is truth, but it means so little.<br />
<br />
Injustice is celebrated,<br />
Genuine cares obliterated.<br />
<br />
And justice, my life's pursuit,<br />
A mockery. A sham.<br />
<br />
Honey lipped deceivers flourish,<br />
And the ignorant are allowed to govern,<br />
But I am guiltless,<br />
At least for now,<br />
I am at peace with God, and Mother Earth.<br />
<br />
And if not for my love of God, I'd leave the Earth,<br />
What can ever be achieved within its domain.<br />
Like the Titans, it eats its offspring,<br />
And the world, is but a trap,<br />
Waiting to draw you in.<br />
<br />
I believed your lies once,<br />
But your ideals were false and self serving,<br />
Foolish me, I guess,<br />
But I still believe in ideals.<br />
Just not yours. Yours are false lies.<br />
<br />
Wealth is illusion.<br />
Just the right dry spell, and all is quickly lost.<br />
And poverty can be quickly alleviated,<br />
Or, so we are told, by those who make it all the worse.<br />
By those after others' wealth.<br />
<br />
Devil's tales are spun so well,<br />
And the masses buy into them,<br />
And kill for them,<br />
And hate for them,<br />
Oh, how good it is to feel so righteous and to hate,<br />
To hate the innocent as the devil,<br />
To retell history,<br />
And to tell all good they've done as a foul tale,<br />
And the benefits you have as reparation, and act of God, good fortune,<br />
Never theft. But it is. It is theft. In your heart, you know it.<br />
<br />
I'm unwelcome in my country, I've always been.<br />
I'm better for it, for the things I've seen.<br />
<br />
I'm sceptical of the world,<br />
It's a trap, you see.<br />
<br />
You signal your virtue over me,<br />
Your ill gotten claims,<br />
<br />
But, I have studied history, broadly, and spanning millennia,<br />
<br />
Fool that I am, speck of dust I may be,<br />
But my end is something to consider,<br />
<br />
As millennia shift, shape, and pass,<br />
You'll only be remembered for your hate.<br />
<br />
I'll be forgotten altogether. <br />
At least, by your false world, your soiled histories, you see! <br />
Or, rather, you don't, I think that may be the point.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-15168535001538050142016-09-17T14:59:00.000+02:002016-09-17T15:02:12.064+02:00Unexpected, life mine...Unexpected, life mine,<br />
Not as predicted, I've become.<br />
I didn't know - I would lead this way,<br />
Nor you, I guess, we'd say.<br />
<br />
And yet you faded, but muse,<br />
Forgotten, archetype, distant fuse.<br />
<br />
Unexpected, path mine,<br />
Not where I projected, far in time.<br />
<br />
And the winds rustle, a breeze, light, upon frozen heart mine.<br />
I cannot pretend to have predicted, the future soon.<br />
In my heart, hope or ruin.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-74809544620070594842016-09-14T18:37:00.000+02:002016-09-14T19:31:26.061+02:00Mixed into life with chance, but lacking anything not yet bittersweet<iframe width="100%" height="300" style="background-color:transparent; display:block; max-width: 700px;" frameborder="0" allowtransparency="allowtransparency" scrolling="no" src="//embeds.audioboom.com/boos/5048577-mixed-into-life-with-chance-but-lacking-anything-not-yet-bittersweet/embed/v4?eid=AQAAAD6J2VcBCU0A" title="audioBoom player"></iframe><br />
<br />
I take my coffee, swirled with intermingled energy,<br />
I forget my headache, my whelm of whelping concerns,<br />
Headache, thoughts, any name you wish,<br />
<br />
I take my coffee, my tongue, it burns,<br />
And with it, my luck squeals and screams.<br />
<br />
Memento Mori... The call of the grave. <br />
And the Grim stalks closer with the passing of every day.<br />
I toss another coin, perhaps I'll lose my of sudden closer tail,<br />
For the world has turned, and again, the day is made anew,<br />
With new thoughts to penetrate from another exterior world.<br />
<br />
Frozen, like a character stuck forever in a horror scene,<br />
But my fears are simpler, nuanced, more sophisticated,<br />
Not but opaque, to any but me, though shallow as the Bering sea.<br />
My terrors, too latent, profound to glimpse,<br />
Except in my slight expression, fears a camera obscura would all but misread.<br />
<br />
And in it, despair, a seed.<br />
And in it, despair, none but me can read,<br />
Even if they understood the foreign type I find an engrossing read,<br />
Luck, libations and deeds.<br />
Respice post te. Hominem te memento.<br />
<br />
Hominem te memento.<br />
<br />
Yet, my face, it would not display my thoughts, tedious silky weave.<br />
I add a little milk, and sip my coffee, before time takes its potency.<br />
With savage purity, and nothing sweet, it gradually invigorates me.<br />
<br />
And in a game of toss and woe, life,<br />
The background, and the grave, they always win.<br />
<br />
I take my coffee, and read a little,<br />
In a tongue, as burnt and unsophisticated as what I read,<br />
And pretend I'll yet have good luck, good fortune,<br />
Not the comeuppance due all who are, for a time, alive.<br />
<br />
And I will out of bitterness, for a future,<br />
A path to impede, for even a second, or a lifetime,<br />
Memento Mori... The call of the sombre grave.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-62150524971153290732016-08-14T19:30:00.003+02:002016-09-14T20:02:21.852+02:00It catapulted you through your many happy dreams<iframe width="100%" height="300" style="background-color:transparent; display:block; max-width: 700px;" frameborder="0" allowtransparency="allowtransparency" scrolling="no" src="//embeds.audioboom.com/boos/5048664-it-catapulted-you-through-your-many-happy-dreams/embed/v4?eid=AQAAAH6P2VdYCU0A" title="audioBoom player"></iframe><br />
<br />
Remember me, the shadow, the one you once shared your hopes with,<br />
Remember the things you told me, as you stood before the empty void,<br />
Forget not my woes, and the love we once had honoured,<br />
Forget me not... forget me, but remember a few of our moments.<br />
<br />
Remember when you tried to convert me, to a God in whom you no longer believe.<br />
Remember all your certainty, sometimes I wished for it too.<br />
And I wasn't insulted, when you asked it of me, but I stuck somehow to my lesser beliefs.<br />
You had such steam running through you, it catapulted you through your many happy dreams.<br />
But you never once lost my esteem.<br />
I wonder where your passion went, which had such concern for little old me.<br />
And my lesser God has yet to abandon me.<br />
And I still hold my lesser beliefs.<br />
<br />
Remember when you talked of marriage, of your plans for us to elope.<br />
We haven't spoken in many years, it's something that was once your hope.<br />
If only I had held your beliefs, which have long since gone up in smoke,<br />
If only I'd been good enough, as good as that of which you spoke.<br />
<br />
Remember well, how you looked down upon those whom you now best resemble.<br />
How you spoke of your vision for them, them who now mirror your heart and trembling soul.<br />
<br />
And I wonder if you've found some right or wrong, amidst the grey of your world,<br />
And whether your hopes still remain in some escape to be bought, for the wage of your salt.<br />
<br />
And I mutter words in a language long dead,<br />
And bow down still, with my lesser thoughts in my head.<br />
And shadows pass before me, as candle light flickers ahead.<br />
<br />
And I am glad I did not change for you,<br />
In fact, I've not altered much at all...<br />
<br />
And though I hardly remember your name or your face,<br />
I remember when you asked me to change, to become something other, greater than little meek me.<br />
And I feel relief in these shadows, as I softly worship my lesser God,<br />
A slow river, not swift passion, my lesser, lesser beliefs...<br />
<br />
I hope you somehow found the peace you sought, <br />
You always jumped for a hope.<br />
<br />
Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-75783955328662956192015-12-19T15:08:00.001+02:002016-09-14T20:25:47.017+02:00She pretified me. Her hypnotic eyes. I was fascinated, like snake prey, staring at one. #Poetry #Poem #Prose #Love<iframe width="100%" height="300" style="background-color:transparent; display:block; max-width: 700px;" frameborder="0" allowtransparency="allowtransparency" scrolling="no" src="//embeds.audioboom.com/boos/5048788-she-pretified-me-her-hypnotic-eyes-i-was-fascinated-like-snake-prey-staring-at-one/embed/v4?eid=AQAAAACW2VfUCU0A" title="audioBoom player"></iframe><br />
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She petrified me,<br />
I was fascinated, like snake prey, staring at one, upon the hypnotic eyes,<br />
Or a cat in headlights. Screech, splat, there it was, that lifeless deflation, it had once been me.<br />
She undulated and swayed, like an old pine tree,<br />
<br />
My blood solidified, burning lava turned to tarring stone.<br />
My inner organs liquefied, my stomach felt a little upset.<br />
<br />
Her textures and curves and smoothness enchant,<br />
As shadows dance upon her unholy nights.<br />
<br />
She gave me a solid fright,<br />
And turned my world 180 degrees. I ran right out of sight.<br />
<br />
I turned and ran, I tried to fight,<br />
But whenever I stopped for breath, there she stood,<br />
Waiting for my eyes to droop,<br />
She petrified me, as though I were a timid mouse before a blood-thirsting, readily curling snake.<br />
Or a victim before Medusa and the furies,<br />
She undulated, with serpentine hips,<br />
<br />
I hold back, and search for an antidote,<br />
But she approaches even when I dream,<br />
And darkness and nightmares are her quiet rural streams.<br />
And my eyes and neck spin and move as she lets loose her beat.<br />
And she enjoys her own dance as she moves her feet.<br />
<br />
And she'd delight if I fell truly into her trap, and fell into the darkest deep pits,<br />
If I joined so many others, whom she controls with the empty hand movements with which she strikes and whips.<br />
But I do not desire to be on unsteady ground, as she continues with countless others,<br />
An illusionary muse. As she hits the floor in ever new dresses and shoes.<br />
And delights at the countless captive men she nightly woos.<br />
<br />
To fall for her... I'd only lose.<br />
So I turn away, and leave her and her empty rhythmic noose.<br />
And she dances, as though devils and sylphs let her loose.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-63824395627295655462015-11-28T13:09:00.000+02:002015-11-29T12:58:31.452+02:00A ghoul seeks my December, subtly, secretly, seethes(Listen to this poem being narrated by it's author, Marc Evan Aupiais:)<br />
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A ghoul seeks my December, subtly, secretly, seethes, <br />
It wants my soul and my very anguished end, charcoal flames in an otherworld,<br />
By my grave, it breathes in deep, my death scent, it awaits, it adores the thought,<br />
Of the inevitable easy decay... of my ways, it so very delightedly brays, <br />
- to waste and edible death paste, it whispers away.<br />
It is already a creature of death's final say.<br />
<br />
And in the passageway, to my chamber's bed,<br />
Awaits a foul ghost, a phantom spirit,<br />
A soul split in many tortured horrible death tarred ways,<br />
Angered by my stay, and by my living breath.<br />
Glacial presence, haunts the summer haze,<br />
<br />
And upon the clouds, heaven is amiss,<br />
Dragons fight in the darkening white shades,<br />
Their breath's discharge, smoke, like clouds of snow and rain,<br />
And a Fomorian beast, meets the Celtic Gods with ease,<br />
As Ra and Oden come out to seek.<br />
<br />
Shades trace the way to Hades,<br />
As the devil's widely grinning creatures grin, with glee, bray, moan, precipitate.<br />
And demonically, in the darkest fathom of the gloaming,<br />
Sometimes my mind does striate, upon the darkness, a pattern of unfaith,<br />
As diabolic wraiths do fly, sour and ply the inevitable fate.<br />
<br />
But logic divides dreams, and imagination it does mitigate,<br />
And for the most part, the preternatural fears of primeval man exert latent, unspoken stress,<br />
Are but a wisp, hidden in lurid night terrors, of humanity's intermittent sleep. <br />
<br />
And I awake, to praise the bright African sun,<br />
Awaiting a life, surely of love, affection, to be won,<br />
And after death, a heaven perhaps,<br />
But preternatural fears of primeval man exert latent, unspoken stress,<br />
And many inhabitants of this earth, blame and wildly gesticulate,<br />
Whatever it is, we are powerless, it certainly awaits.<br />
And one day, we will know,<br />
Or we will merely lie dead and emptily decay.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-68890715521282676602015-11-08T15:24:00.001+02:002015-11-30T13:40:51.483+02:00Softly flap the winged clawed digits...(Listen to this poem, 'Softly flap the winged clawed digits...' being performed in spoken word poetry narration by its author, Marc Evan Aupiais)<br />
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Softly flap the winged clawed digits, <br />
Of the darkly silent smidge of a death bearing, life searing bat.<br />
It swoops above, and had dived upon the head.<br />
It speaks, and squeaks, and listens intently,<br />
As its night eyes, and mouth combine in perceptive proprioception.<br />
<br />
The clouds are white, as the gloaming begins to reap the sky,<br />
Softly speaks the squeak of the uncannily canny, unsettling bat,<br />
As it circles, with bacteria infested wingtips, <br />
And fangs from which maroon berries or blood drips,<br />
And disease, an aura, surrounding it,<br />
As it follows the moonlit aisles of night sights.<br />
<br />
And in the distance, something preternatural speaks,<br />
A voice or was it the rustling of leafless trees, squeaky clean,<br />
The whisper in the worrisome willows,<br />
An instinct speaks,<br />
It says I lack some secret knowing,<br />
<br />
Softly flap the winged clawed digits, <br />
Of the darkly silent smidge of a death bearing, life searing bat.<br />
And I ignore the otherly instinct,<br />
And head into even stranger things.<br />
<br />
Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4826606331015696073.post-64154135236342130542015-10-25T11:17:00.000+02:002015-10-25T11:34:10.158+02:00And you told me of your dreams, how you'd go into the night.We lay together, on our backs.<br />
Looking together at the great black.<br />
Bright white dots, sparkle in the lonely sky.<br />
And from the stars, our star looks quite white,<br />
Bleached dry, phantom sight.<br />
<br />
And you told me of your dreams,<br />
How you'd go into the night.<br />
<br />
You climbed upon a futuristic craft,<br />
It travelled to the speed of light.<br />
And I looked at you, as you sped off into night.<br />
Time is but change, and the more massive you became,<br />
As you approached the constant, the barrier for light,<br />
The slower you moved. You were there in the blink of your eye.<br />
<br />
And you followed the stars about the milky way,<br />
You went to strange planets, and did speculate.<br />
You looked at the black whole, some distance away.<br />
You said that from space, Sol, our sun, is white.<br />
And you realised that the coloured photographs from the radio telescopes, <br />
were only in reality almost black and white.<br />
<br />
And you visited the quasars, and the pulsars, and even approached the great wall.<br />
You did not realise, that time went for you, ever so slow.<br />
When you got there, it was gone, only darkness and night,<br />
Though our galaxy, which you left, still shone ever so bright,<br />
As light travelled with you, one and same speed.<br />
You realised I'd been dead for billions of nights.<br />
<br />
And so you headed back home, you were lonely and alone.<br />
Every now and then you stopped to take in the light's ghost of long dead lonely sights,<br />
And time sped up, as you and light did collide.<br />
Billions of years later, you reached, in the blink of an eye.<br />
There was darkness, not a solar system. The earth had long since been taken and turned to night.<br />
And amidst the emptiness, a distress call did sound.<br />
A last craft, with a woman in charge.<br />
She spoke of the end, our race quite extinct.<br />
As you neared her, the time did begin to fly.<br />
You realised she had been dead a billion years hence,<br />
Not even a body remained to decay.<br />
You docked and boarded, you let yourself in.<br />
<br />
You discovered that man had learnt to weave gravity, to thwart the universal constant,<br />
And had spread out across every stretch of time and space.<br />
Trillions of galaxies, and trillions of souls.<br />
Mankind had grown and matured.<br />
And you heard the many greatest songs, watched the top films of ever world,<br />
And read the annuls and the greatest of books.<br />
Shakespeare was forgotten, you said... compared with the greats, you weren't too surprised.<br />
<br />
And the last survivor had left a diary of the time. Some of her crew had children,<br />
But the gene lines were thin, and even they died within a decade or so.<br />
And they had all taken pharmaceuticals, to extend the range of their lives,<br />
From several decades to centuries,<br />
And you thought that no doubt that was wise,<br />
And you read so many books with your time,<br />
And you watched the greatest of films,<br />
And learnt of the history of time.<br />
<br />
And discovered that gravity did not just weave space but time,<br />
And so you sent the ship back so many billions of years, and the vast distance back to were earth is now in the cosmos.<br />
And you found me to speak,<br />
Your eyes were bright like stars, and you were a little older than when you left.<br />
You spoke of so many things,<br />
But you had never looked me up in the great history of things,<br />
Why would you, I guess.<br />
And you hopped back upon your great craft,<br />
And sent yourself through space and time.<br />
You spent millennia exploring planets and stars,<br />
And seeking out alien civilized life,<br />
And when you found civilizations long dead and gone, <br />
You sent your craft back those millennia in time,<br />
And you found the planet which you had found,<br />
Those many parsecs and light years away.<br />
And you watched great and small civilizations rise and then fall.<br />
You observed and sometimes intervened,<br />
You saw the most beautiful and ghastly of all scenes,<br />
And told me of history's great highlights,<br />
And how the first man came to be.<br />
<br />
You were older this time,<br />
When you returned.<br />
I guess many millennia had passed from your perspective.<br />
You said you loved me, it was why you always returned,<br />
And the reunion was a fun few hours, before you returned.<br />
You were older when you came back,<br />
Your hair entirely white, your face wrinkled,<br />
But your eyes were lit like quasars, and your heart pulsed like the stars.<br />
You said you only had a short time left,<br />
You died in my arms,<br />
And I sent your dead body to your favourite star,<br />
As set out in your will.<br />
<br />
I assume your ship crashed and burnt, disintegrating as your corpse neared its final tune,<br />
For I did not accompany you, I felt your craft was not a great boon.<br />
For it killed you young and all too soon,<br />
And only a few years after we first had met.<br />
I had wanted to have children with you,<br />
A life, a career,<br />
And that ship, had taken you from me, like a suicide, or the wind.<br />
And we had both mourned each other's death,<br />
You, at the end of time, a billion years after humanity had whimpered into death,<br />
A great sadness, you had felt at my death.<br />
<br />
We lay together, on our backs.<br />
Looking together at the great black.<br />
Bright white dots, sparkle in the lonely sky.<br />
And from the stars, our star looks quite white,<br />
Bleached dry, phantom sight.<br />
<br />
And you told me of your dreams,<br />
How you'd go into the night.Marc Evan Aupiaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07744987793383281492noreply@blogger.com0